* …awkward pause… *
I was waiting to publish this live weekly update from April 1st, 2026 because it was all about vulnerability and an entire process I went through around sharing the most vulnerable thing for me, which quickly became the anchoring theme of my week.
At the end of this 75 minute recording, I had a hunch it would be worth writing a good deal more about.
“Wow,” I thought, “this has been such a huge week of me really leaning in. It feels like I’m actually ‘putting myself out there’ like people are so apt to say I do.”
Something is/was happening.
In the meantime, as even more days passed of processing and sharing with others, reflections on my own vulnerability and the meaning I’ve been making of it didn’t end. They went deeper. So, then, I really wanted anything I would write about it be good.
But now I think I’ll just let the video speak for itself. This is, after all, very likely the most meta live weekly update thus far.
It’s about vulnerability and the recent choices I’ve made to continue living and growing and learning as a meta philosophical performance artist. I also offer some personal history over the past decade to illustrate the evolution of what it has meant for me to “become a meta philosophical performance artist.”
To hear that history and really get it in general, it’s probably best to just watch and listen, which also means you’ll likely end up awkwardly sitting with me through a weird, long pause at the start.
To be clear, such an odd beginning wasn’t intentional.
All the more strange and maybe even a little fitting that this was the one time I chose to look at the camera and patiently wait for the app to indicate that the connection was live, which I have always taken to mean that is when the recording has started.
Apparently, no. That’s not how it works. It was already there rolling, recording all along.
Well, since I don’t edit these videos, maybe there is something about vulnerability and awkwardness and feeling the tension of really putting yourself out there (or witnessing someone else do it) that reflects, or even embodies—yet again, on some other level—the whole point of it all.
It is quite intimate to sit without speaking and look at each other, no?
It’s also intimate to want to know in a way that develops our sensibilities such that we can understand.
So much of the value and learning I experienced over the past couple weeks around vulnerability was supported by our conversations in Romancing the Revolution. If you’re interested in joining, you still can! Register here to get the link for the rest of the Sundays in April. Remember, the price of admission for Buy Me a Coffee Members is $10 for the month!
